Wednesday, September 4, 2013

I'm Back!!!!

Hey.....so its been a little while since my last post, which is bad on my part.  I promised myself I would blog at least once a month....writing theory.......but there is clearly no post in August.....oops.........

......but there is a rhyme and a reason to that.  This post is a confessional.  And my confession is that motherhood can be fucking hard......no one wants to say it, I didn't even want to think it, but its the truth.  The cold hard motherfucking truth. 

Not to say it isn't rewarding, because it is, so much more then I ever thought it could be.  But last month was my "melt down " month.  I was so busy trying to do it all, be a good mother, check. Be a good wife/housekeeper. check. Be a good friend, daughter, sister. check. Take time for myself, total fail.  I sometimes think that if I'm not there to be with my son, I'm some sorta horrible mother. Crazy right? 

But like I said in my last post, I was starting to take more time for myself, and it felt good.  That continued all moth long and into August.  I tried to focus on some much needed "me" improvement.  Eating better, getting back to the gym, meeting former co-workers for a walk on a Sunday morning. (I brought Marshall on the walk), but dropped him off for a yoga/pilates/tai chi blend class.

The husband and I have been getting out more too.......dinner, a wedding, bon fires, and a couple of drinks.



 Its been good.....no fucking great, no fucking refreshing!! The tallest, coldest, glass of water with a nice wedge of lemon. Ahhh!

Please don't get this post all twisted.  I spend 92% of my time with my son, and I love it.  He is my world, there is no doubt about that. And as of right now, I am still a stay at home mom.  But the 8% "me time" was needed. Needed so I could be a better mom.

I guess you learn as you go. 
Shauna Lynn






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